Well, I’ll try to keep this as short as possible, but, theres so much going on it might be hard.
My BF and I have been together for 1 1/2 years. I moved to knoxville to be with him back in august of 2006. he was still in highschool and said he wanted to move to chicago, where i am from, when he graduates. i didn’t want to wait 2 years, so we came to the conclusion i would move to tennessee for 2 years, and then we would move to chicago.
alot has happened in the past year. we were dating for about a week, i still lived in illinois, and i had a very PG rated quick fling with an old friend. my BF said hes never been the same since finding out. i told him right away. its been over a year, and he still dwells on it. we get into spats fairly often over really meaningless shit. we’re both very stubborn. but, the thing is, he went to a club and met someone, and told me he was moving out and that he loved this person. wtf? talked in a club for an hour and hes in love. anyways…. i found out he’s been doubting our relationship for many months, he’s been unhappy, and has thought about ending it for a long time. (no idea why he got a tattoo of my initials on his chest like, 3 weeks ago, but w/e). we worked through that and he agreed the person he met was just a "knight in shining armour" type thing, and he said it broke his heart to not be with me, but it didn’t break his heart to not be with the other person. so, he said he wanted to give us a chance. he also said from now on, hes not holding back, and hes going to be 100% honest with me.
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So right now my fiance and I are going through some housing issues. I just graduated college and in the midst of finding a job. I might have a couple lined up but I wont find out for another 2-3 weeks. Also at the moment my fiance and I are wanting to buy a house (we are waiting for a response from one of the potential employers) since we will be living in the area for the next couple of years. The only problem with all of this is right now neither of us has a job. We have enough stored up to be able to last for a little bit. She thinks that I should look for some job just to basically make some money for the next couple of weeks and so we can get preapproved for a home loan. I would rather not because I dont want to get a job just to quit after a week or 2 of working there. She doesnt want to get a job because she is an online class that is a shit ton of work for the next eight weeks and she has another class that she will be taking for 2 straight weeks in june. So she is reluctant to get a job now because she is afraid she will get behind in her school work and because she will have to have off the first 2 weeks of june for her class. So right now we are kind of stuck and looking for any suggestions.
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Maybe i just need to grow a spine and tell people to get fucked more often.. who knows.
I’m a salesman, and we send off repairs for products that we sell eg. Cell phones, stereos’, tv’s etc.
Why then, do i have a hard time trying to tell the customer that it isn’t here yet from repair? Is it because i know they’re going to chuck a spack and start yelling.. and thus lead me to think they might take a swing?
Or do i care about saying something that the customer might not like hearing?
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Okay, resorting to OT for the first time with some advice.
I’ve been feeling lonely and depressed lately and it’s nothing really new — I have a great idea of what I could do but I feel a little limited too. I have no group of friends. No girlfriend. I don’t even know where to start, man.
I’m going to college very soon; starting summer sessions so I’ll be real busy studying and I have a part-time job too.
I mean work life is alright but its just not the best place to make friends. While summer vacation has started - I’m taking all sessions so I can catch up for the new season. While most people are out of college partying up or with the free time they will have — I’m stuck studying!
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what is real and what is not? who can i believe, who can i knowingly ignore…….? what im seeing, is it real, or just another copy of the fake existence of myself……..? i dont know what to believe in anymore other than God, the holy spirit inside of me……i can FEEL it, PHYSICALLY FEEL the HOLY SPIRIT MOVING INSIDE OF MY BODY. do others out there feel the same thing? or am i just crazy? am i the kid everyone on the streets wants to avoid? am i that fucking mean, scary, like i have something to hide? everything is bewildering my focus on life. the crappy job, too much time on my hands to know what to do. am i over analyzing everything, or have i even scratched the surface? I DONT FUCKING KNOW ANYMORE
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As many already know, I have a pretty rocky relationship. Me still being in it may be questionable, but I truly love this girl and I just want it all to work out in the end.
Currently, She lives about 6 hrs away (I am in Pittsburgh, she is NJ). She has had problems in the past and racked up a good chunk of debt that she is now busting her ass to pay off. I’m recently graduated from college, do not have a job yet and pretty much am failing at life in general. When we are together we get along well, but we have been long distance for almost a year now and have had spans of 2 months where we didn’t see each other, but still talked every day. It sucks.
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In the sense of the way they "Act".
Im 26, most of my closest freinds are much older than me because in high school I hung out with an older crowd. A handful of them I still go out with from time to time and a handful I just lost contact with. I think pretty much all of my freinds are married and have kids.. im the only one of my freinds who has no kid and supports himself and nobody else.
Im responsible, and so are all of my close freinds.. we all look out for ourselves (in my case) and our families (in their case) but when we get together, or when we visit, have a barbecue, talk on the phone.. a drink.. anything… we’re down to earth people..
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Is it normal to hate my ex?
part of me thinks that i shouldnt, because this time 3 months ago all was peachy, but since the breakup (even though i am jealous as shit of her) i really cant stand her, she has a new boyfriend so whatever, but if i saw her i would be furious, if i spoke to her i couldnt help but be bitter towards her.
I really hate her.
I hate her for making me feel like crap. I hate her for not loving me.
It’s pretty normal I believe, it’s only been 3 months and you hate her because she doesn’t love you. When I broke up with my ex he hated me for awhile. He didn’t want to speak to me, see me, hear of me, etc. He wanted nothing to do with me. It wasn’t easy for us and there was no way for us to be friends. Now after a yr and a half I think the wounds have been healing. We can speak to each other without being complete jerks to each other. But, I guess it just takes some time to let the wounds heal and to move on. It’s not easy to lose someone you’ve loved for so long. I’m sorry.
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I am falling back into a depression. I had to make a tough decision recently(though I feel there was only one choice in the matter), and had an abortion. Part of it b/c I’m not ready to dedicate my life to a child or have those ties to someone(especially since the relationship is still newer and I’m still trying to learn who this person is), another part is that it was a suprise and I had been doing certain legal and illegal things while pregnant and definitely thought that couldn’t have been good for the situation. Since it’s happened I have fallen back into this funk. I have no confidence, no self-esteem, I am starting to resent my SO, not trust him(i don’t know why) and am basically falling apart. "Breakdown" by Tom Petty is a good way to put it.
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Ok I’ll go through the events leading up to today in short form,
10 years ago I lost my wife to cancer, we had a daughter in her time with me.
7 years ago I hooked up with a crack ho drug addict who I thought I could change. Yes I was in love with her but in the end she told me she only loved me for about 3 years of the 7 and she spent the last 4 years with me for the sake of my daughter to my first marriage.
Needless to say this had an effect on my trust towards women and so I wouldn’t get hurt again I decided to cover my heart in ice and stone (metaphorically) just to be extra sure that no one would ever get in except for my Daughter whom I now have an awesome relationship with.
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