Ok, so I have a long story here, but bear with me. About 1 year ago, I broke up with my first love, first long term girlfriend. We were each others firsts and we dated for 2 years. She cheated on me once at the start of our relationship by kissing another guy at a party, but after that she changed and we dated happily for 2 years. Towards the end of our relationship we started getting into lots of fights, and it was a downward spiral of on-again / off-again fights for about 4 months. We broke up and got back together countless times for the last 4 months of our relationship (big red flag I know, but I was jaded and in love). Eventually the fighting got to be too much and we both ended it. We were both miserable for about 6 months after that, with a bit of communication here and there. I rebounded with a few girls, and then started dating again. During this period I occasionally heard from her, and she would tell me she was not dating anyone. Eventually we stopped talking for awhile. I had a few dates here and there, but no one was special. Eventually I found my newest GF, the one I’m with now. She was amazing and basically everything I was looking for. We are happy, until about 2 weeks ago. My ex has recently been calling at least once a day, and I never talk with her. But I called her back once and we met for coffee. She told me she wants to try dating me again and give us another chance. I was shocked and a little confused at this comment. I said I should be going and walked her to her car. Before she left, she tried to kiss me (I avoided it because I have a girlfriend) but ever since that day she has been on my mind. I am conflicted because I really do enjoy my GF now, but she is missing a certain something that my first GF had. The thing that I am scared of is ending things with my current girl (which is going great) and jumping ship to try to start a relationship again with my ex (which failed the first time around) and eventually losing both girls. My ex has told me she has matured alot over this time we have been broken up, but part of me is scared we will just end up fighting and history will repeat itself. Honestly, deep down I dont think I ever got over my ex, as she will always have a piece of me. Part of me wants to end things with my current GF just to give things a try again with the ex, but my brain is telling me that is stupid. I guess I am just venting, but any advice would be welcome. Sorry for the long read
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